WOW

It's senior Spring Break... always a big one, supposedly. But I want more out of spring break than most. More than just being trashed... I am expecting more than that. To actually remember how much fun I had, who I met, and to not regret any decisions made: that is what I expect. I see people on the beach, in their condos, drunk and making some crazy decisions. Did I mention that I have only been in Panama for about 7 hours? Yea. I came here w/ a relaxed spirit, with no distractions to hear God speak to me. And guess what? He is! Already! I am now reading A Young Woman After God's Own Heart by Elizabeth George, and when I first saw the cover I was thinking, I'm too old for this book, but I bought it anyways. And it was God's plan, it's like He's speaking right to MY heart. He amazes me, my God. I hear over and over that He will always take you back no matter what I have done, big or small, and I always get to the point where I'm thinking, "Okay, He's going to take me back, but He has to be tired of this. He must be so angry with me and frustrated saying, "Don't you get it yet?" But that's the beauty of His love. He isn't saying that, He's ready for me to come home to Him. WOW (dramatic pause) WOW This is for real. The mini-gifts and assurances He gives me, there is no doubt in my mind that He really LOVES me THAT much! How is it that I can get so distracted w/ friends, FACEBOOK... that I don't take time out of my day to spend with Him who loves me THAT much? I have 24 hours just like everyone else. And if some can do it, I can. I'm not balancing the world on my shoulders. Although I have to convince myself of that daily. Christ is here. He is helping me, loving me, showing me grace and mercy. WOW

I'm going to continue reading... but I wanted to post while it was on my heart!

Love you all.

Linds. <><